Hi there!! Let me first introduce myself, my name is Markus Evan. You can call me Markus, I'm sorry if my blog is a bit lame but its just that this is my first time doing something like this, so I would like to apologise if there is any errors or what so ever.
(EeHmmm!!)... My age is 25 years old, born in Asia and raised by strict and conservative parents so its a bit hard for me to express myself, I meant my true self. You must be wondering what I mean by expressing my true self, well actually since I was in my teen years I've always like mature guys. At first I thought that it was just a phase of my teen life and that I'll pass it, but it seems that the more I ignore it, the more and more I like them. So finally one day I made it clear to myself that I'm a gay man...
It was pretty hard growing up knowing that you are totally different from your friends and the worst part is that you can tell no one about it and all you can do is to keep it to yourself its like as if you are keeping a big dark and huge secret that if it leaks out, it will totally be the end of the world for you. As for my family and relatives, they are very conservative people and for sure they would object to know about my true self. What about friends you say?.. Well, most of my childhood friends and the ones that I have now have no idea and not even close to know that I'm gay. As you can say that I'm a straight acting gay man who is totally in the closet. Like totally!! But luckily thanks to the wonders of modern technology and Internet, I began to find myself and learn more about the gay culture. And thanks to that also that I got to meet my other half.
My boyfriend whom I met two years ago is older than me, his name is Aaron aged 56 and living in Europe. He was the best thing that happened in my life. We are currently not living together at the moment but for the time being maybe twice a year I will visit him and spend some time with him at his place or he'll come over to asia.
I know my story is like the typical straight acting gay man in the closet and of course i know that I'm not alone out there, but the reason for me to write this blog is to express my feelings that I've been keeping for the past few years and that I find this is the only way I can let things out without hurting anyone by using different names and so on.
So this is only the beginning, it is like an ice-breaker you can say so that you know more or less about me. Will tell you more on the next post, thats it for now!!
Chao!!
(EeHmmm!!)... My age is 25 years old, born in Asia and raised by strict and conservative parents so its a bit hard for me to express myself, I meant my true self. You must be wondering what I mean by expressing my true self, well actually since I was in my teen years I've always like mature guys. At first I thought that it was just a phase of my teen life and that I'll pass it, but it seems that the more I ignore it, the more and more I like them. So finally one day I made it clear to myself that I'm a gay man...
It was pretty hard growing up knowing that you are totally different from your friends and the worst part is that you can tell no one about it and all you can do is to keep it to yourself its like as if you are keeping a big dark and huge secret that if it leaks out, it will totally be the end of the world for you. As for my family and relatives, they are very conservative people and for sure they would object to know about my true self. What about friends you say?.. Well, most of my childhood friends and the ones that I have now have no idea and not even close to know that I'm gay. As you can say that I'm a straight acting gay man who is totally in the closet. Like totally!! But luckily thanks to the wonders of modern technology and Internet, I began to find myself and learn more about the gay culture. And thanks to that also that I got to meet my other half.
My boyfriend whom I met two years ago is older than me, his name is Aaron aged 56 and living in Europe. He was the best thing that happened in my life. We are currently not living together at the moment but for the time being maybe twice a year I will visit him and spend some time with him at his place or he'll come over to asia.
I know my story is like the typical straight acting gay man in the closet and of course i know that I'm not alone out there, but the reason for me to write this blog is to express my feelings that I've been keeping for the past few years and that I find this is the only way I can let things out without hurting anyone by using different names and so on.
So this is only the beginning, it is like an ice-breaker you can say so that you know more or less about me. Will tell you more on the next post, thats it for now!!
Chao!!
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