Erick was an old friend of Aaron, they have known each other for more than 10 years. they were lovers at first but then something happened and now Aaron sees him as a brother more than a friend. He now runs a successful business and a very good painter and I "sooo" look up to him. So I have no problems about that because at first I thought that they have a very special bond which I really appreciate. So I was looking forward to meet him and get to know him as a friend. Well, I guess not for him huh!!..
Aaron has been talking a lot about him, telling me about the thing they had in the past and how well Erick has become today and how proud he was towards Erick. So it was very inspiring when I hear stories about him. But there was one particular time when Aaron starts to compare me with Erick. And damm was I pissed about that, because I never like being compared to other people as I've never compare anyone to anyone in my life before. At first I took it as a motivation kind of a thing, but the more he talks about Erick the more I get pissed off. But I just kept quiet thinking that he might be right.
Then he began telling me how Erick calls him frequently when he's bored at home complaining that he has no one to see or meet and he was feeling down. When he told me that, I asked him how frequent does Erick calls him. So it seems that Erick will frequently call Aaron when he is bored and has no one to talk to, so in a sense he took Aaron like a so called "last-resort" to a person to talk to when he has no one else. That made me feel very uneasy but the thing is that, I for now have no say because they know each other longer than I know Aaron so at that point of time, I decided to just shut up.
Sometimes Aaron would tell me how sad he feels for Erick when he is alone and he will try to cheer Erick up. I mean that is Aaron's behaviour, he will try his best to cheer all his friends when they are down. But the thing that I'm not happy about is that, I mean from my perspective, Erick knows very well how much Aaron feels towards him and sometimes I think he's using Aaron's sympathy towards him so that he can get some attention I should say. I'm sorry but I don't want to be mean or bitchy about this but that is how I feel towards this guy. If he could not get attention from other people, he'll try to get it from Aaron.
You must be wondering why I dislike Erick so much, let me tell you. Remember when I say that I was looking forward to meet him after hearing all the stories about him, yes!... So there was one time me and Aaron went to his place to stay for the night. I was really excited to meet him of course but as it turns out, I did not expect that it turn out differently. To me first impression is a very important thing, with all his other friends, they were nice and polite and that made me feel welcome. But the first time I met Erick, oh was he really something. No smile nothing, just a handshake and then he's off to bed, not even a single word. NOTHING!! When he did that, I already know that it was not a good sign.
I've talked to Aaron about this but it seems that Aaron is a bit protective towards Erick and he'll always say that Erick is always like that and that I should ignore his behaviour. And if I were to say something about Erick, he'll pretend not to hear or the worst...changing the subject!. I mean, which boyfriend is not pissed off when his other half is treated like a rebound and the fact that he does not realise that. Aaron told me that Erick is a bit jealous of him when he has a new boyfriend and he will never ask Aaron about them or getting to know more about them. What does that show?... You tell me. My feeling is that Erick sometimes regret letting Aaron go and that now for sure he knows very well that he can never get him back. Sometimes I wish that I could just tell him straight to the face to just grow up and stop being an ass.
Both of them have this weird "Brotherly" bond which both of them share with each other and my guess is that I'll never understand. I'm not jealous or what so ever but the relationship that they have is so weird and a bit dumb. On one hand, there is a guy who seeks attention from almost everyone and if he does not get it, he knows for sure that there is one person who will give him just that and on the other hand, there is a guy who really appreciate the bond so much that he sometimes does not think.
That's why I've come to a conclusion that I'll pretend to ignore and just "respect" the bond that they have as long as it does not interfere with my relationship with Aaron. He can boast all he wants about Erick but I'll have my comments and opinions about him and I'll keep it to myself.
I'll try my best to be friends with him but if he thinks that he does not want to do so, well I'm fine with that as I do not gain anything nor did I loose anything. But one thing is for sure, this situation actually gives me the drive to be a better person and to treat everyone equally regardless of how they are.
So, love the people who love you and try to be fair to the rest.
Chao!!
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